Jo and the endless night
OK and breathe…
…slowly in…
…slowly out…
…and in…
…and out…
…drift off to sleep…
… don’t think about the work assignment tomorrow…
…breath in…
…and out…
…forget about the parking ticket, it can wait until the morning…
…time to sleep now…
…just drift off…
…ignore the lyrics stuck in your head…
All the things she said
All the things she said
…ignore them…
Running through my head
Running through my head
…focus on your breathing…
THIS IS NOT ENOUGH!!
ADADAMNIT! HOOFFODUMBLEPLINK!
“Get off me duvet! Fuck you pillow! Traitors both of you!”
…OK, that was not cool. Pick the pillow up and let’s try counting sheep…
…1…
…2…
…3…
…4…
…5…
…see this is relaxing feel the worries of the day gliding off you…
…6…
All the things she said
…7…
All the things she said
…8…
…9…
Running through my head
Running through my head
…stay strong, focus…
…10…
…11…
…12…
THIS IS NOT ENOUGH!!
FUCK!
…OK, OK, come on Jo, you have literally slept through eons of history, you have meditated longer than the life span of an entire universe, just drop off to sleep now…
…focus on the darkness…
…watch as it changes and transforms against the screen of your eyelids…
…ignore the clawing feeling of not having enough…
…watch the shapes float by like clouds…
…of not being enough…
…Jo…
…of not doing enough…
…1…
…of not starting what you were meant to start…
…2…
…of not achieving your goals…
…breathe in…
All the things she said
…3…
…breathe out…
…of not saying the right thing…
All the things she said
…breathe in…
…focus on the darkness…
Running through my head
…4…
Running through my head
…5…
…of knowing if you stop focussing on you breathing you will forget how to breathe…
…6…
…breathe in…
…no breathe out…
…the darkness inside of you Jo…
…7…
THIS IS NOT ENOUGH!!
“OK, I’m going for a walk.”
